What’s in a Name: Atlas Wade
I knew at 6 weeks pregnant that I was pregnant with a boy. Maybe it was the masculine energy I felt from him, or the fact that none of the go-to names we had been sitting on for 5+ years felt right.
What’s in a Name: Olive
I loved calling all our babies “Thorpling” but calling our second-born “Thorpling #2” for the rest of my life just didn’t seem too appealing. My mom suggested naming our baby to help bring closure and healing in some capacity.
What’s in a Name: Evangeline Cherie
Naming a child is a HUGE responsibility that we took very seriously when it came to all our babies.
To my husband, and father of our children, Zach
I am unable to express how much I appreciate you. You heard me. You heard my heart, my concerns, my fears, my needs. You rose to the occasion. You have far exceeded my expectations of how supportive you have been during this pregnancy, birth, and 4th trimester…
Healing in Preparation for Birth: Pt. 2
I had this lingering feeling that I need to close the chapter of grieving and mourning Olive in order for me to enter into my next chapter of mother to two living babies. I asked for feedback from my classmates, my sister, and mom and after a lot of conversations and deep-pit-of-my-soul-sobbing, it was finally brought to my attention that I still harbor so much guilt.
Healing in Preparation for Birth: Pt. 1
I had this lingering feeling that I need to close the chapter of grieving and mourning Olive in order for me to enter into my next chapter of mother to two living babies. I asked for feedback from my classmates, my sister, and mom and after a lot of conversations and deep-pit-of-my-soul-sobbing, it was finally brought to my attention that I still harbor so much guilt.
4th Trimester Meal Prep
One of the biggest keys to postpartum care mentioned not only in The First Forty Days but also the training I am currently finishing up is COMMUNITY.
“Why don’t you post pictures of your daughter?
“Why don’t you post pictures of your daughter?” What first started me on this thought process was, we live in a sick world with sick people. I do not like the idea of someone using pictures of my daughter for deviant behavior- she is so innocent and pure and the idea of images of her being used in that type of capacity makes me physically sick.
Happy 4th Birthday, Evangeline
Celebrating Evangeline’s 4 years earthside.
Maternal Mental Health
This is something that I feel we (women specifically) have been conditioned to do over the generations - stop listening to our instincts, and start sacrificing how we feel for the sake of others. I honestly feel this is a big part that plays into maternal mental health.
How this Pregnancy is Different
I had to make the conscious decision to be at peace that this pregnancy is going to be different.
I see the Light
I listened to I See the Light which is a love song between the main characters, and all I could hear was a love song to my daughter and how much I ached that I watched her first two years of life through a heavy fog of postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety.
Happy BIrthday Olive
Healing to Conception
After a few months of care and month after month of heart and spirit breaking negative pregnancy tests, Zach and I decided to ask Dr. Jordan and Dr. Matt for additional information on the fertility protocol mentioned at our initial intake.
How I healed from Postpartum Mood DIsorders without a Prescription
*This is in no way shape or form a way to replace seeking professional help or medical advise. This is showing how I worked WITH my care providers, and how I saw several specialists before I decided what route to take for my healing.
Rainbow Baby - Pregnancy After Loss
As a birth worker, and childbirth educator and currently pregnant with our rainbow baby I am sharing this from a place of personal experience of practical application.
Postpartum Care & Pregnancy and Infant Loss
Your employer/company should not consider pregnancy loss is as a vacation; any time-off taken for healing is bereavement time.
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness
No one wants to talk about this - neither did I. Now that I am a bereaved mother I want to talk about it as much as possible so that others might learn from my experience. This is my attempt to bring awareness to pregnancy and infant loss in 2019.
I Know How You Feel…
“I know how you feel! I friend of mine, their sister had a miscarriage.” Yes, I have been on the receiving end of this statement.
People Pleasing & Pregnancy
We do not want to make waves even though there is something churning in our gut that says “I do not agree with that” or “I do not understand why”. We do not want to upset “our superiors” as we subconsciously view them. We do not want to run the risk of offending them. So we just nod our heads in acceptance all while we just tightly secured our seatbelts in the passenger seat of our pregnancy, labor, and birth.